i thought we were 'grown'.

                               

                                    

mr.,
it's obvious that the heartless still feel. or we would be able to deal with each other with no problem. it's gotta be so much harder to push your want aside and act the part: you don't care. love is something you can turn on and off. things are different in a day. huh? that sounds real conditional sonny. something that 'love' definitely is not. the smartest people in the world do the dumbest things in search for the impossible to make them feel 'whole', even if part of the equation is the one who cooks their meals and dotes after them. the road you're traveling is one i've seen before. that's why i tried to warn you [what is it about men taking advice from women?], but you put on the 'game face' and assured you had it all under control. turns out, it's got more control over you than you planned. definitely sui generis, through your journey, please don't lose you're wonderful, eclectic, bright spirit. talk more, it results in resiliency, and let your family keep you grounded.  i say all these things because it's clear that i won't be there for you, dear friend. but that isn't by choice. it hurts that you aren't able to just be friends, and that i won't be able to laugh the kind of laugh that only you evoke. i just wanted to get along... but i ask for a favor, "it depends".... i don't want a friend who does that anyway. oh well, i enjoyed my time with you. just hope the feeling was mutual. that's all we have left. feelings. whether you like it or not!

*post disclaimer: the feelings conveyed with the association with the video is just general. yes, my heart still beats, and my life goes on. i just used to jam to this back in the day! vintage kelis!